Its hard to explain the pain when you fail and you know deep down that you could have put in a better effort and avoided that… and then your team mates walk up to you and say that they were sorry… I guess a few fingers pointed at your incompetence at that time would have hurt you much lesser than knowing deep down that you were partially responsible and also knowing that your teammates believed knew that you gave your best…
Its probably fair that you lost sleep over it for a night and came back the next day with the determination, not to stand up to others expectations but to your own…