I believe in jinxes. I am generally not a very superstitious person but there are somethings I cant get myself to do. I believe at in some level doing one act will jinx doing something else or ruin its progress.

For one, if I ever have to do something that I believe is very important to me… I don’t like to talk about it before hand. I always fear that when someone hears about it and exclaims “Wow you are doing that… Cool”(I get that sometimes), I am jinxed to either give up on doing it or something else randomly happens that takes all the fun out of doing whatever.

I know its a mental block and the pattern has happened too few times to even make it a proper pattern but the thought is always there.

Another jinx I believe in has got to do with birthday wishes(few of my friends know this one). I believe that what ever I wish on my birthday I will definitely get it, just that I will never get it in the way I originally wanted. This is a odd funny jinx but has been coming true for the last three years. The odd thing is that for two of the three years when I made the wish I believed I had wished for something I would never have. By the next birthday the wish had come true and turned sour… This year I made a wish after my friends insisted I make it, that came true within just two weeks but dammit not the way I wanted!

The reason I talk about all this today is I believe I finally broke another jinx I had… With that I now believe I can get my mind over fate and conquer my other jinxes.

This jinx was a part of me for over a decade. It started one day when I told my friend a story I was planning to write. He was a close friend and after listening to the story said he thought it was average… Average from a close friend mean a little better than pathetic. I never wrote that story.

It happened a couple of times later when I told someone a story/blog/concept before writing it and never wrote it. Sometimes they loved it too much that I felt too satisfied to write it…

But last week something odd happened. I sat down and told a story to my teacher and a couple of close friends, this story had been lingering in my mind for a year now and I never got around to write it. They listened to it intently for over 45 minutes… During that time their rapt attention to my story telling convinced me it was time to get a move on things. I got valuable feedback about parts that created a doubt in my mind but most important of all they made me feel alive with a zest to finish this.

I believe in jinxes but now I also believe that they disappear one day.