When you were least expecting it hits you… Like something you had expected for years to happen and it did not occur. So when it did occur it was more like a miracle. Vindication for everything you believed in, offered in such a beautiful package, at such a wonderful time when you had just given up the dream… like it was all meant to happen… like a story had reached a climax.

The search began a long time ago, looked every which way… in places where you expected to find it and at times even in the most ridiculous of places. Searching for things you lost is so much more easier than for things you have never seen… and after repeated failures the thought slowly began to set in ‘maybe it does not exist’. I was at that phase almost a year ago…

Over time I realized that my search for it was my naive way for finding something which each and every one of us has thought about and felt that it is what is required. I guess my thoughts matured over this time and realized that finding it and what is symbolized was not important to me at all… This was when I decided to walk away…

There was a line from Lost which has stayed in my mind for a long time now, “The only way to find what you truly want is to stop searching for it.” The line is almost like a puzzle and once you have figured it out, every conquest in life becomes so much more easier. I heard this line only a few months ago and after yesterday I can say I believe in it absolutely.

So there I was yesterday ignorant of what the universe was bringing to me… I was so ignorant that it took me a few hours to fully contemplate and understand what was just given to me. Now that I do, all I want to do is thank… I will pass my gratitude to the carrier of this ominous message which has in its own way rejuvenated my vitals and made me fall in love with life even more(if that was possible)

…And then I saw her face,
Now I’m a believer…