Life is so ironic… There I was contemplating a post on how few ‘good’ Conversations I have had in a long time(its true and more on that later)… Just then I have this amazing conversation with a friend who is leaving the country… We spoke about a lot of things but its the finale of the conversation that was really special and interesting to me.
A little rewind so that the rest of you can catch up :) She was one of the few people who knew me before she met me! Ironically that was exactly why I wanted to meet her… She had read my blog/writings/stories and even occasionally commented before we personally met. The reason I wanted to meet her(even though it happened informally) was because she was the only person who could have answered a important question… “Am I true to my writings?”
I know that my friends who have met me before and during my blog creation and execution could answer the very same question but its a little different… Let me explain… A few weeks back when I published my new story online lot of people I know told me that they could read it as though it was being narrated by me! I was very flattered but the problem was that it was not meant to happen that way… Assuming me narrating such a story would have worked against understanding it the way I wrote it… This same thing happens with almost everything I write… and hence I needed someone who had hardly ever heard my voice or spent time with me :)
I wanted to put forward the question for a while but wanted to give enough time for her to try and put that image created of me and (the actual) me in the same frame and hit ‘compare’ :P After knowing each other for almost an year I thought it was the right time to see what answer I get…
What she told me really shook me up. She simply said that my blog entries were restrained versions of me! Like it was only a part of me that was influenced highly by an event or action around me in the recent past/present. She told me that she understood me better from my stories…
It got me thinking and I now feel stupid that I did not figure this out earlier :P It was always in my writing… my stories are a deeper insight into my thoughts than the ocassional quick post I make, then again the posts are much more clearer view of how I lead my life… But if you wonder what would Haas do in a specific situation, my stories would have the answers.
I always felt that my blog was a best insight into me… guess I was wrong :) So… If you want to know who I am… You know what to read :)