I saw an old friend yesterday… Not seen her in like 8 months and all of a sudden she was walking past me… I was so surprised to see her that I was finishing a call and just stood there. I’m sure she saw me and she knew that I saw her but she just went past.
Things didn’t end on a right footing the last time we spoke and I never called her again or tried to reach her, save one email saying “happy birthday” a few months ago. The last mutual interaction made it clear to me that she was angry with me and I wont divulge into the reasons.
Its weird how you see someone from your past and almost every conversation you had with them happens again in ur mind… you then remember your best and worst moments and relive those old days again…
She was the one who inspired me to put faith in talking in relationships actually. I mean I hv seen close to the worst of what can happen and that made me realize that when u care for someone you call them back and tell them whats bothering you. Which is ironic coz all i need to do was call her and say something… anything and I didn’t.
I’m not sure I particularly enjoyed the reunion but I had expected it to happen sometime(we live in the same city for god sake… (for many reasons)we would eventually bump into each other) And then after seeing her again and thinking, is that her… yes its her… did she see me… ya she did, I was talking loudly on the phone along the way and she must hv been like a few feet away from me…
I doubt she will ever read this(my blog is not that popular). But I might as well say it here in the hope that she will bump into it… rather wait a long time to again see her and not say anything. Well. all I wanted to tell her was… “I’m sorry, I wish I had not said what I said but I know that I cant take it back now but hv ever since regretted saying it. I wish things could go back to a few days before our last phone call but I know its too much to ask for…”
PS: What I said was nothing abusive or not said in any form of fury…