There is a very rare feeling of absolute gratification when you accomplish a special task. This feeling is so powerful that deep down you just know that if at that instant you dropped dead, you would have zero regrets about your life. A feeling that is so overpowering that you feel that you have completed the task that you and only you were meant to accomplish.
Only twice in my lifetime have I felt that feeling…
The first time I felt it, i was simply amazed by the amount of happiness and relief I had felt completing that task. It was so powerful that I spent weeks after that wondering why I had even experienced it. I guess it would be fair to call it a spiritual experience but calling it that would simply but borders around it.
The latest of the experiences came a few days ago. Its hard to explain coz the event that caused it had happened a few hours before the realization and when the realization hit, thats when the magnitude everything became obvious. When the feeling hit, I remembered its familiarity but I still couldn’t explain it.
As I struggle to write this, the words from Iris fill my thoughts:
And I don’t want the world to see me
‘Cause I don’t think that they’d understand
I guess this post will have to remain as vague as it is…
PS: I think a part of me is writing this just so that one day in the future I will have to look back at it and smile