New Sense

I believe in jinxes. I am generally not a very superstitious person but there are somethings I cant get myself to do. I believe at in some level doing one act will jinx doing something else or ruin its progress.

For one, if I ever have to do something that I believe is very important to me… I don’t like to talk about it before hand. I always fear that when someone hears about it and exclaims “Wow you are doing that… Cool”(I get that sometimes), I am jinxed to either give up on doing it or something else randomly happens that takes all the fun out of doing whatever.

I know its a mental block and the pattern has happened too few times to even make it a proper pattern but the thought is always there.

Another jinx I believe in has got to do with birthday wishes(few of my friends know this one). I believe that what ever I wish on my birthday I will definitely get it, just that I will never get it in the way I originally wanted. This is a odd funny jinx but has been coming true for the last three years. The odd thing is that for two of the three years when I made the wish I believed I had wished for something I would never have. By the next birthday the wish had come true and turned sour… This year I made a wish after my friends insisted I make it, that came true within just two weeks but dammit not the way I wanted!

The reason I talk about all this today is I believe I finally broke another jinx I had… With that I now believe I can get my mind over fate and conquer my other jinxes.

This jinx was a part of me for over a decade. It started one day when I told my friend a story I was planning to write. He was a close friend and after listening to the story said he thought it was average… Average from a close friend mean a little better than pathetic. I never wrote that story.

It happened a couple of times later when I told someone a story/blog/concept before writing it and never wrote it. Sometimes they loved it too much that I felt too satisfied to write it…

But last week something odd happened. I sat down and told a story to my teacher and a couple of close friends, this story had been lingering in my mind for a year now and I never got around to write it. They listened to it intently for over 45 minutes… During that time their rapt attention to my story telling convinced me it was time to get a move on things. I got valuable feedback about parts that created a doubt in my mind but most important of all they made me feel alive with a zest to finish this.

I believe in jinxes but now I also believe that they disappear one day.

In the words of House:

Ah, my birthday. Normally I’d put on a festive hat and celebrate the fact that the Earth has circled the Sun one more time; I really didn’t think it was going to make it this year, but darn it if it wasn’t the little planet that could all over again

Honestly, Im not as cynical of celebrating birthdays as House but I am very critical of it coming just once a year. I believe everyone should celebrate their birth every day of their life… Actually its not crazy as it sounds, whats the whole point of celebrating every 365.25 days anyway? (Im just saying)

Actually I think birthdays are more for moms, I dont think all the struggle I have done thru my life is even a small faction of what I caused her while I was in her womb…

So while i receive wishes from ppl all day; with every wish, I remember my mom once more

Lets talk 26…

26 is…

• The only single number between a square (25 = 52) and a cube (27 = 33).

• The number of sides in a rhombicuboctahedron.
• The atomic number of iron
• The number of spacetime dimensions in bosonic string theory.
• A 2003 novel by Leo McKay, Jr..
• The number of miles in a marathon rounded down (26 miles and 385 yards).
• Often the number of episodes in a television program each year; this allows one new show per week for half the year, and one rerun per week for the rest of the year.
• The age at which males can no longer be drafted in the United States

and last but not least a number that I shall carry as my age for a year from today.

PS: All info snagged from the wikipedia page

In the early morning of last sunday, I stepped out of my house before the sun had risen. I walked up to my bike, started it and simply drove away…

I have always wanted to do a long drive on my bike and despite having owned my bike for over an year I had only traveled in the city. I love driving in sections of the city where there were smooth roads clear of traffic, enjoying the wind and the speed. But I always missed doing that bike trip.
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Yesterday I completed my 25th trip around the sun I dont know why but turning 25 was always considered as a big event. I have watched most of my friends cross the line dreading it but for me it was something like waking up to a different sunrise…

The 25th year of my life had started on a very sorry note. I was incredibly depressed a year ago and what was more irritating was that I had no idea why. The first few months echoed that day and very soon I had almost stopped doing most of the things I loved. It was almost like I had forgotten the basics of how to be me… It took me a long time to get back on my feet and figure out things again. By the end of the year things had come a full circle. My last week doing the needed of finishing the last pieces of the puzzle that was my 25th year.

For me, the advent of a new year is something like the finish line… I make an effort to sprint across the line giving it all in the home stretch. There was a bunch of things on my todo list this last week and like the past few years I finished almost everything on that list. The list is in no way simple, it has tasks that take time and effort but what is rewarding is the thought that just these tasks on thier own make the whole year worthwhile. This year the tasks were very close to my heart. I was happy I could finish most of them in time

The day itself was packed. I had a pooja at home (not related to my bday) so had the company of my cousins for most of the day. In the evening I cut 3 cakes, almost did not get invited to one of the parties and finished the day with some very intellectual conversations about psychology and theater.

I got many calls from across the globe but wishes thru the Internet topped in numbers. Thanks for all the love folks its much appreciated.

All in all that was my 25th. Lets see what twists the 26th trip brings into my life.